I FORGOT 2 POST THIS ON HERE,, but umm so like last week on thursday all of my wataru stuff finally came in yayy :3 i ordered it like a month ago, i forgot how long surugaya takes 2 ship and also like neokyo packing was on a week backlog or smth but i dont think ive been so excited 4 a package ever. it literally took me an hour and a half 2 unpack everything (mainly bc most stuff had a lot of layers of bubble wrap and stuff) it felt like christmas but i spent my own money and i knew most of what i got already :p
this was everything laid out on my floor :p
keychains and stuff, i was SOO excited 2 find the cat one and it was brand new too!! um the bear keychain is also sparkly i thought that was fun :3 i love the mochi too so squishy and tiny,, i rlly love the uhh rubber keychains specifically idk, esp the ones w like the big dot eyes?? i already have a few of thse but as a collector i gotta have somee duplicates :p i wanna like there r these grid wall things so im gonna get a few of those and fill them all up w wataru keychains!! i do have one on my phone, but im always so worried abt losing them and stuff :( uhh and also the rectangle ones r shiny :p
other stuff, pins pashas and some other little keychains, next time im gonna get some more pashas so i can have like a little book of them or smth and i can decorate them all :3 but i already have one in my phone case so wataru is w me everywhere i go nyaha ^_^ since i never collected pokemon cards as a kid this is my chance 2 spend money on little pieces of paper. idk if im gonna make another ita bag bc i have 2 now, i wanna get a heart shape one but i thinkt hthats enough bc like i dont use bags that much i could neverr bring them to school bc i dont trust anyone!! and i already have like a big tokidoki crossbody bag, i feel like im abandoning that esp bc its a gift from my mom u_u
hte plushie army,, i love the big head one sm, i have 2 get out some more hairclips 4 the other nuis but blehh :p i also have 2 fnid them clothes too, the bug eye one ik that nui series has like clothes made just 4 them of their unit outfits but finding the plushie was hard enough idk if ill ever find those u_u
MY FAV THING !! the bear bag, omg i was SOO excited 2 find this and also the nui its so cute !! i already had a !! era nui b4 this but like u can never have too many X3 it came w the costume so like ofc i had 2 get it ! the bear bag is literally so soft omg, ill be bringing it everywhere w me :3
and then the insert, i forgot hwo painful ita inserts were 2 make bc i poked myself so many times my thumb hurt until i went 2 bed u_u altho i rlly like these pins theyre sparkly !!
but like it was so embarrassing bc it needed an adult signature so there was no way i could avoid telling my mom abt it, it was the worst she was on the phone w my other mom and telling her all abt it and all the stuff i brought and i kinda got in trouble bc im not supposed 2 order stuff online w my debit card blah blha but like its what i have 2 do 4 wataru !! hes the loml and they just dont understand it,, they thought the bear bag was cute but like othwr than that i think they think that my wataru collecting is weird which like idc wataru makes me happy and i love him more than anything and thats all that matters <3 but its so annoying now bc like shes like 'umm u cant spend $20 on jeans but can spend $400 on anime stuff' LIKE LEAVE ME ALONEEE UGHHH and $60 was shipping so actually it was $340 and i got rlly good deals!! like the bear bag i got for $50, and even on jp marketplaces ive never seen it go 4 less than $100,, and like they pack the stuff rlly good which makes shipping worth it, and like if i brought this stuff on america mercari/ebay it'd be 2x-4x the price, like surugaya i usually get keychains on there for $4 or less even w neokyo fees!!
i kinda didnt know that youre actually only supposed 2 use neokyo if youre a legal adult, neokyo pls dont ban me i didnt know im just a girlfail myaa >_< and paypal too but like blehh :p AND THENN my sister asked me why i have sm wataru merch like that was soo unnecessary like i never ask her why she has sm miku merch leave me and my bf alone pls and tyy,, but uh yea i still have 2 clean my room 2 make space 4 all my new stuff but im veryy happy i love everything i got :D i cant wait until xmas when i get more money from extended family and stuff, i hope theyll all b happy knowing that from now on all xmas and bday money will b spent on wataru merch :3 i will b the only wataruP ever!! one day ill add these pics 2 my wataru shrine but then i have 2 add a whole galler section uee ok ty 4 reading baii have a good day :D
i watched this like a month ago, but bc school was starting i abandoned my site 4 a little bit and forgot abt the media log so i never rlly got 2 write abt it u_u ill read the manga soon mayb,, it was a rlly fun and cute watch!! i dont think it was as much as a comedy 2 me as it was supposed 2 b, but like in my mind nichijou is what its like 2 b a girl,, um idk how 2 explain it rlly, like ik most ppl call androgynous anime boys their gender inspo or whatevs but i think this whole show i was like wow. this is what being a girl feels like,, but like mio is literally me i love her and her yaoi manga :3 i too would pretend 2 b a shoplifter b4 letting the police see my yaoi,, um i think i liked the trio the most, the labatory was fun too but like ya. mai is also me but instead of bringing around wood figure things i bring around my wataru nui xd actually i think im just like a weird hybrid of the main three, i was born in a laboratory and the scientists made my brain 2 b a perfect combination of all of them,, omg aioi too, she was the most relatable and also nano was cute too!! i kinda forgot a lot of stuff abt her and professor tho, im srryyy >_< ill try and rewatch it mayb umm i think 8/10??
freaks and geeks
spoiler warning :p
IM SO MADD ughhh why didnt i write abt this sooner,, it was such a good show but i feel like ive forgotten sm already u_u i rlly wish there was more bc it was a rlly fun watch and a much more realistic take on high school. i feel like high school is shown as the peak of ppls lives in wayy too many shows and movies and this show is a rlly gr8 way of showing that 4 a lot of ppl, high school sucks!! other kids r rlly judgemental and popularity means too much, and its so obvs when teachers r judgemental whether they just ignore u or kinda like baby u idk,, altho this show was made like at the end of the nineties, so obvs things have changed a bit in schools bc its been a little over two decades,, i think now the 'geeks' r more just called the weird kids, and i think thats what most of this will b abt bc i am considered a weird kid :p and idc!! if i am weird 4 being myself then i wanna b weird 4ever and always! ok first kim was my fav, i think she was the most realistic and understandable of the cast bill was cool too. OH and i loved millie,, nick sucked, ken and daniel kinda sucked too. idk i think i just liked the nerds more bc i can rlly rel8 to them :p but enough abt that,,
another nice thing abt this show is that like, i feel like its much more realistic w how the 'weird kids' at school get treated. like ofc there r ppl like alan who cant stop bugging ppl and constantly insult them just bc theyre rlly just insecure w themselvles and jealous of others for being able to express themselves, then theres vicki who like, w bill at the party the other kids laughed when the bottle landed on him, and in the closet she immediately said smth abt not doing anything, even tho she barely knew him bc she believed he was weird. and even w picking gym teams!! i mean i dont like gym either i h8 gym class sm and i do like being put in the back but like, u know ppl dont pick u bc they dont like u.. and rlly idc if other ppl dont like me, i dont like them either!! but at least be somewhat nice omg,, and even the teachers, i feel like some teachers just ignore kids they deem weird, r more harsh on them, or there r other teachers that infantilize 'weird' kids. like how am i any different from those other kids youre able to joke w?? ok srry this is kinda more a reflection on school than the show itself, but the show did make me feel sick abt school so :p it hits too close 2 home ig.. and it shows how the nerds r true friends, that they tell each other everything and even after big arguments they stay 2gether. but w the more popular kids, when sam was sitting w cindy one of the guys literally said he'd want 2 see one of the other guys at the table fight sam?? like those r NAWT friends,, and there wanst much, but like there was even stuff abt how cheerleaders r always expected to be pretty and nice, which cindy comments abt bc sometimes she doesnt feel good and shes not gonna b nice!! altho i didnt rlly get why she had to b like that 2 sam um. b4 the breakup idk :( or during their entire relationship actually,, sams whole relationship w cindy, and other things w neal show how much 'weird' kids want 2 fit in, that the two of them had tried to abandon their interests just so they could b liked by the other kids which umm idk what 2 say,, its a big thing tho that like the amount of ppl ive heard that stopped being alt just so theyd stop getting bullied is crazy!! like someone is going 2 dislike u regardless of however u look or act so just b who u wanna b!
but the entire show isnt just abt school bc that would b soo boring,, one of my fav things was halloween, it shows how hard it is 2 grow up and accept that fact, that u cant just b a kid 4ever. and then theres the storyline w amy and ken and stuff abt amy being intersex, which again i feel like is another thing shows covered very little in the past.. and like ken doesnt totally just reject her 4 that fact, he was kinda weird at first so i hated him for like the start of the ep but like, he came 2 realize none of that matters! he still loved her regardless,, and then theres stuff abt parents and affairs, parents finding new partners and altho ive never dealt w either of those things, i think the show does a good job showing how complex feelings can b abt that kinda stuff. and then also w kim and daniel and their families, it gives much more insight abt how they act and why daniel doesnt care much 4 his future, that while they do try and act cool and stuff theyre still just kids,, i dont think kim and daniel rlly have the best relationship, but there was just like.. idk, smth so comforting abt how he was able to show up at her house l8 at night, she didnt question why he was dressed in all punk when she'd never seen him like that, they wer just there 4 each other. some characters got much more insight 2 them than others, but most characters in the main cast at least have a lot of depth 2 them.
lindsay was cool too!! i liked how she wanted to go against the norm, she wasnt a republican just bc her parents were. it bothered her how her mother had acted like such a trad housewife, never rlly taking time to do things 4 herself. i think the weir parents were gr8 examples of like overprotective parents, esp the dad. umm,, i LOVED the ending w lindsay and kim getting in the van 2gether for the hippie concert thing. even tho kim and lindsay def have some rough moments, they always return to eachother in the end. kim is def someone i would consider 2 b a true friend to her friends. lindsay doesnt want to grow up living the same life as her mom or rlly anyone else in town, she wants 2 follow her own path!! multiple times she comments against harsh expectations 4 women too, that like just bc kim isnt prim and proper doesnt mean shes a bad person like many ppl make her out 2 b. and also i love how lindsay gets called out on her privilege several times, like kim commenting on how lindsay has the money 2 be able to go away bc kim doesnt, and lindsay acted like vacations were smth accessible 2 everyone. ok im TIRED i cant think of what else 2 say,, whoever cancelled this show, i hope ur pillow is always warm on both sides. 9/10
my first summer
i watched this movie a few weeks ago, so my memory isnt the best about everything but honestly this was one of the sweetest movies ive watched ever,, it was so sweet i was crying at certain moments because rlly, it was just adorable omg,,
ok so a summary as i can describe.. claudias the daughter of an author and has been sheltered for her entire life, due to her mothers belief that the outside world is either. im pretty sure the film takes place the day after, or shortly after her mothers death. another girl named grace stops by her house one day and thats the start of their relationship, and theyre both able to learn more about the world from each other. i dont think theres rlly any plot to this, its mainly a bunch of sweet moments and the growth of their relationship.
i think my fav part abt this film is that at least for most of it, like 95% of it, its rlly just claudia and grace. purple promises, pink dyed bed sheets, eating candy off each others necks, lipgloss kisses.. its all so sweet. its soso lovely. its not a big point that theyre girls in love, they just fall in love. they dont need to come out about it at all, which was so nice i feel like in media its always such a major point to have lgbt characters announce their identidies, but they were just able to fall in love. i rlly liked how important color was to the film, with grace wearing bright bead jewelry and a tutu when she first sees claudia while claudia lives in a house of natural colors. ok i actually rlly wanna rewatch this now and then i hope i can write a better sort of review for it bc rlly this was amazing. 9/10
when i was in fifth grade and i went to the mall w my family i had seen hot topic for the first time in my life. the place that all the emos on tumblr considered emo heaven with all their band tees, so i knew i HAD to go in there. i didn't care about anything besides the band shirts in the back that i rushed to and i immediately got the black parade mcr shirt, even tho my mom thought it was creepy and my sister thought the entire store was creepy and would always wait outside XD for like another few yrs i was still in love w hot topic and always had 2 check the band shirts 4 smth new. but like now, i kinda h8 hot topic,, sm has changed!
ok so like im not gonna talk abt way back when it started bc i wasnt even born and i dont wanna talk abt stuff i didnt experience,, i mean like from the pics ive seen from it in the past it looked sm cooler than it is now but like blehh :p i mean i think the logo change from the red to the basic white logo thats used now just shows enough how much stuff has changed. but like idk hot topic got very sad over time and i started 2 realize that in 8th grade?? mayb bc i was old enough to actually understand money and also bc all the stuff in the store wasnt as exciting as it used 2 b,, like idk what stores there were in the past but ik hot topic is kindaa popular 4 the fact that it sells alternative fashion but like u can get the same stuff online at different places, and way cheaper.
most of my dislike 4 hot topic now is bc its soo expensive,, like who thought $30 tshirts were a good idea?? and like compared 2 shirts i have from ross or aliexpress, theyre not that better 2 b spending an extra $20,, like some of my more recent hot topic shirts the graphics have been cracking 4 a while now even tho i always wash+dry them inside out, but my band tees back from like 5th-6th grade arent rlly that bad,, i mean like idk how expensive they were back then bc up until like 7th grade i had no concept of money but but i think back at the start of 8th grade they were like $20 maybee.?? which is still expensive but like even forever 21 shirts r that expensive now @_@ and hot topic jewelry is my biggest enemy, my necklaces always rust after like 2-3 wears and sometimes the ring 4 the pendant idk snaps off u_u but like i have this one aliexpress necklace that ive worn sm like ive chewed on the chain and everything and the color and quality havent changed at all!! like just bc smth is more expensive doesnt make it better quality. and like its such a ripoff, 2-3 kandi bracelets in a pack 2gether for like $12 when u can get a pack of beads for that same price and not only make ur own one of a kind stuff but make wayy more! i do think kandi is best 2 diy, not that like ppl shouldnt buy/sell it but like bc of plur and raves and everything i think its fun 2 make kandi a diy project, or trading :3 uhh off topic srryy but like i h8 buying full price stuff at hot topic i only ever buy stuff on sale or clearance anymore, like guaranteed every time i walk into a hot topic im asking the closest employee 2 me whatt heir current sales r :3 altho i will admit their belts r actually rlly nice quality, at least the studded ones all of them look brand new but ones ive gotten from like ebay or whatevs have marks or fallen apart :(
my other issue w hot topic is that like, when i went there the first time all i cared abt was their band tees. but now the band tees only get like one wall, while anime tees get like two,, yk like how there those shelf things around the store too w endcaps and everything, like all of those r dedicated 2 cartoons and games and anime and sanrio blah blah but never rlly band stuff. i forgot most of the hot topic research i did but like wasnt a big part of hot topic when it first began band tees, bc back then u couldnt rlly get band tees unless u made them urself/went 2 the concert?? ik stores change over time but like, its kinda sad u_u esp considering there r already plenty of stores that mainly deal w anime/other animated pop culture stuff like boxlunch fye etc etc and even stores like target, five below and walmart already have anime stuff but youre not gonna find any emo band shirts at any other stores at least irl. ik mayb all the change is bc its name is hot topic and all, but like uhh ok idk what im even trying 2 write abt anymore i DO have reason 4 writing this bc i thrifted a hot topic madoka magica shirt a while ago and its literally SOO soft modern hot topic could never,, baii meoww ty 4 reading nyaa myaaa
spoilers!!i love to overthink my hyperfixations and one of the many things i have overthought abt in enstars is symbolism and connections. and rei and eichi connect in a lot of ways!! there r the very obvious things at first abt rei and eichi that make it clear that they r both like reflections of each other sorta. like their color schemes r inverted and the whole themes of the units they lead basically being the opposite of each other, undead being abt like demons and darkness or wtv and fine being more angellic and abt heaven and all that stuff. like literally their intro songs r opposites of each other, owaranai symphonia being abt fine helping u when youre down and melody in the dark being like abt some song that will like trap u or smth idk,,, even in their cards eichi's usually surrounded w much lighter colors and w angellic themes while rei's r w darker colors and more like demon themes idkdkdkdkddd
little details now,, reis 2nd yr hair and eichis hair throughout all the games r inverted too, like the center bang parts r inverted idk,, then theres like theres personalities which like even tho rei kinda puts on a cool tough act 4 undead he is just rlly loving and empathetic and caring and stuff, then eichi kinda acts rlly nice but like can be petty or wtv (not saying he cant be a nice person i understand why he did what he did during the war) so like sorta putting up fronts 4 their units?? i think they both too have someone in their units that they knew before their current units formed, rei with koga and eichi with wataru. then in their names while eichi has a lot of meaning to his, some of them r heaven, blessed, and happiness, while rei's translates too moonless night. they were also both childhood friends w keito and were helped by keito in some way during their 2nd yr, rei w the student council and eichi w the plans w the five oddballs. also idk much abt music anymore but i KNOW the r in rei's name is a music symbol and so is the f in the fine logo but that might just by styling idk,,also i noticed in the art books undead's symbol is a bat wing while fine's is a bird feather
i think their connections would rlly only matter 4 the war, based on the fact like their hair being inverted during their 2nd yr and stuff,, it mightt connect to how rei was the student council pres b4 eichi and part of rei's 'execution' was leaving his position as the pres, how eichi was kinda mainly known for leading fine (altho im pretty sure mugi was the actual leader??) and rei was the leader of the five eccentrics, rlly the units that ig u could say went to war?? i havent read a whole lot of the stories yet mainly just ones from the war era but i will have to continue my search i think its vv interesting i luv finding connections in stuff ^_^
back home from my 3 day nyc trip so im gonna write all abt it :3 4 this trip my mom and i stayed mostly in times square but we checked out brooklyn (my first time visiting there), the village, flat iron district area and chinatown/canal street too and some other places i cant rlly think of rn or didnt know the name of :3 our hotel was right by joes pizza which is like my fav pizza place everr so i was able to go there a bunch xd and on day 1 we went to magnolia bakery bc that is one of my moms fav bakeries and we always go there on our trips. uhhh also went to ralphs ice cream bc that is my fav ice cream place in the whole world and again i always go there every trip. in brooklyn we were able to try out a few bakeries and some nice ice cream places too :D i think we got in the wrong area bc there was supposed to be like a super cool downtown area but we never found it u_u even tho i did visit a few thrift stores there they were kinda disappointing and so expensive like why r u selling used jeans for 60$ omg!! ik a lot of ppl thrift to be ethical (me too) but srsly charging more expensive 4 used when u can buy new 4 like half the price is kinda crazy, it takes away another big purpose of thrifting which is to be affordable but it wasnt like a goodwill it was like labelled as 'vintage' so ig thats why. altho at the same one they had a shirt w grell from black butler but it was too small and i dont rlly like black butler that much anyways u_u music highlights from the thrifts: taking back sunday and gorillaz :o there was weezer in one too but i only know like one weezer song bc of tiktok so ya,, i heard the flea market in brooklyn is rlly cool tho so when my mom and i go 4 our summer trip i think we'll go over the weekend :3
the village is always nice, even tho ik all the stores r soo expensive and i will never be able to afford anything in them ever i like walking around. i went to the flat iron district to visit forbidden planet (comic store place) bc when i went a while ago they had nana and south park funkos but nothing this time u_u also got more expensive i think, a sheet of persona5 stickers was 6$ like o_O,, but it was cool to visit i like looking at all the figures and stuff even if those r kinda overpriced too. there was another comic store in brooklyn that had scott pilgrim figures that were rlly cool but even when i watched+read it i was never like a huge fan i just liked knives and wallace. i went to bookoff too and game prices there were kinda crazy like a danganronpa game was 90$ i dont think they were ever that expensive?? idk tho bc im not a dangan fan anymore :p altho the prices for the random pins+keychains in the back were rlly good like $3 for a pin which is like the same price as stuff on aliexpress but i wasnt rlly able to look thru bc it was soo hot and there was sm stuff it wouldve taken me hrs and i wouldve passed out 4 the 2nd time that day xd i figured there wasnt rlly a high chance of finding enstars stuff so,, i went to kinokuniya too bc that was by the hotel too and it was rlly expensive ofc they had a lot of csm stuff but keychains were like $14 each u_u ik stuff is more expensive bc its offical/liscened but its still kinda crazy 2 me. altho kinokuniya did have a little enstars section and ofc i went crazyyy waaa i was soosoo excited if it wasnt for the fact that i was in public i wouldve been jumping everywhere xd enstars in the wild,, i got 2 art books and the covers r soo pretty i spent hrs yesterday just looking thru them i love them sm. one even has like wataru central focus on the back cover so gorgoeus waaa i love wataru sm prettiest man in the world,, there was a hypmic section but it was filled w stuff 4 another game?? same w bandori it just had pjsk stuff even tho i dont play either of those games was kinda disappointing i was gonna take pics to show my spacehey friends but ig not,, i also got a tokidoki bag there :3 they had cute stickers and plushies on the bottom floor but those were all like crazy expensive, again w the $6 sticker sheets gahh u_u the displays to just look at art books were pretty tho and they had those cool like book shelf decoration things where its a book but u can decorate it to be like scenery, even tho i prob wont be able to afford a lot it was a cozy store i liked just being in there
ive went to chinatown and canal street a few times but this time i had a mission to search for some gloves from the last visit and sponge cake. i didnt get the gloves last time bc then i didnt think id wear them that much and they werent worth it but i thought abt them more and rlly wanted them u_u so we looked but we couldnt find the store and it wasnt worth going into every store ever. it was during the week so there wasnt like the usual canal street craziness which was nice bc when we go on the weekends theres like way too much going on. i went to this one store that had a bunch of old sanrio stuff like plushies, a dollhouse and sticker maker but all that stuff was kinda expensive u_u i did get a my melo stationary kit :D then i got like 10 sponge cakes xd i only ate 3 there tho i saved the rest 4 home :33 they were soo good nom nom,, then near chinatown theres a few plush stores i usually visit and at rumi life i got a penguin plush bc ive been collecting penguin plushies since i was like 4 like i cannot leave a plush store w/o one xd, they also had some cute bead sets but i didnt get them bc i have enough beads uhh and thats it 4 now i think maybe ill upd8 if i remember any more :33 i had lots of fun tho i luv nyc sm its times like this im jealous of rich ppl bc like i wish i could live in the city and eat $1.50 pizza everyday and walk everywhere and actually have stuff to do waa my fav place in the whole world
shoutout 2 the enstarrie kinokuniya worker
rant abt my experience with gender and what comes w every person - a name!! my least fav thing EVER!! i know i was born w a name, even tho i h8 that word more than anything and when i hear it i wanna rip my ears off. i love the name ive chosen for myself but also it feels so weird to be referred to by it,, like this girl whos in my bsf's band class at school called me rex in the hallways and i was happy i think i was happier abt that than abt the fact that she complimented my hair but it also felt weird to be acknowledged as who i rlly am?? like im so used to everyone knows my birth name and im usually called that but this girl doesnt even know what it is. to her im just rex,, even on spacehey when it was my bday and ppl called me rex it made me sosoo happy but im just not used to it. my family uses it but when they use my name it just feels fake, theyre trying too hard and my one mom just deadnames me half the time anyways and usually to her my actual name is just a privilege :/ my bsf uses my correct name too but i just think thats not weird to me bc weve been 2gether since 4th grade htats like 6yrs now o_O i think it kinda has to do w the idea that i h8 being percieved as an actual person and not just a thing,, IDKK i cant explain it but like i dont even think of myself as human rlly so thinking abt having a name and the possibility of being referred to is SOO weird 2 me,, like at school im not even acknowledged im just there. and like i dont wanna be acknowledged that much and rlly that can be 4 a diff rant but when ppl use my correct name+pronouns aka literally just respecting me i feel so happy my bsf and his mom use my they pronouns and it just makes me so happyyy ok now abt my gender actually like ok so being a girl. i luv the idea of being a girl i luv the idea of being like the shojo protags or the girls in 2000s chick flicks that go out to the mall w their friends on the weekends, write w cute stationary in their cute diaries, and gush over boys aahhhh but i know thats like i just dont feel like a girl at all,, when i think abt being a girl i just feel weird, like rlly i dont enjoy my she pronouns that much and actually writing this now decided im gonna get rid of them from everywhere and when someone calls me a girl i just recoil ig idk,, but i also luv the idea of being introduced as someone's gf, and i want the boy i luv to call me a good girl, a pretty girl AHHHH def why i luvv girlthing as a gender i have never seen anything that describes me more everr. and more on names and gender in general i think that was the hardest part abt my self discovery. like rlly ive been discovering more abt my gender right up to now and itll prob stay like that 4everr and it took me a yr to find a name i actually felt like fit me, and b4 that i had the WORSTT names i think my first name was noodle (after noodle from gorillaz bc i was hyperfixated on gorillaz), then gerard bc mcr hyperfix too,, then it was brick, and then nep bc homestuck u_u (6th grade eww), even after i was confident abt my name being rex i ended up in my death note hyperfix which was more like 60% all of death note 40% mello and named myself mihael for a few months,, but now ive stuck w rex for a little over a yr now and i love it even tho i think i will never rlly understand gender at all i can be sure that im rex and i think thats all that matters 4 now :3