officially the start of my summer high school is now over! i finished my last exam on friday! i was lucky this year i only had 2 finals, physics and stats which r easy :p but graduation is on wednesday and then i have uconn orientation the week after graduation so i cant rlly get myself motivated to start anything major. i picked up desperate housewives again after dropping it a while for patalliro and got halfway thru s5 while crocheting some hats.. still unfinished, i have to rework one of them too i dont rlly like how it came out. then today i drew a little and started reading eroica, no big opinion on it but i have yet to find a 70s queer shoujo i dont like!! And long hair bishies how can anyone not like that ooh lala... i do have to work on my grad cap deco still but gah... Lazy... i also have to do it downstairs bc i have no safe place to put a hot glue gun in my room but i hatee working on crafts with other ppl around. Like my jewelry table is in my moms' office rn bc they redid the old living room and they dont even use it after renovating it!! but anyways.. Yes i have no space to make jewelry anymore and the lighting also sucks so i am limited to work in there only during the day if the suns out. Which means i can only make jewelry in the summer. BUT THEN my moms get all like umm why do u never make jewelry anymore WHY DO U THINK. smh. And then well this sounds kind of douchey but i get annoyed when ppl try to talk to me or watch me when i do stuff. its the worst with cooking and baking but i dont like it with other stuff either. Like drawing... and for wips being asked what im making.. its just a little embarrassing. i feel kinda rude bc my moms r just curious and want to engage with me but idk.
i do feel a little upset sometimes bc i can tell my moms dont rlly view my hobbies which r more 'feminine' as real skills that require lots of practice and time... Like i make them bracelets but they always break them bc they dont take care of them and ask me to make new ones all the time but its not that easy. and they like seed beads but those r so hard to work with, my finger r too fat... and i cant do outdoors work bc im rlly sensitive to heat so they say my hands cant do anything but i do sm with my hands! i crochet, i knit, i draw, and how would i make their bracelets if i didnt have hands... :( even though my moms r women themselves, it upsets me that they do give in to patriarchal beliefs like that. they are difficult to shake esp considering them being more prevelant when my moms were children but idk... like i still hear stuff abt not shaving or not wearing bras blahblah Like idc what anyone thinks Especially a close-minded man who refuses to educate himself.
after graduation i get to go out and get indian for dinner!! The day after but im still very excited.. bc graduation is late its at like 7pm i think? ghhh... 7pm im already ready for bed.. But ive been budgeting for japan so i havent eaten out in a while im very excited :P channa masala and samosas and pakora Yummy yummy my mama is also gonna make me a special breakfast with tofu bacon and home fries that morning for breakfast! im so happy ive been having oatmeal for a while now but its soo boring.. i add a little maple syrup but bleh its still a bit bland. But its nice and filling and an easy way to get nutrients so it doesnt rlly matter.
i think i thought i had more to write about than i actually did.. Oh i guess ive also been big into picmixxing lately. ok yea thats it I have nothing else to say and my head hurts and i finished my birth control pills which means my period is dueee and ik bc ive had cramps all day and im tired and a little moody and i rlly wanna go to bed
for the past few weeks i always have a moment at least once a day where im like Hm theres something i want to write to put in my neocities journal. but then i dont do it and forget what it was. Most of it i prob condense into tweets but ive been soo tired and all i rlly do is play ltd Sigh. i need to stop playing ltd i already have 100+ hrs but im scared what if i leave and all the couples i worked so hard to get together split up. Like imagine returning and utenanthy and franmaya and gilserge have divorced, banmara breaks up, bruh... but im getting a little bored ive decorated my island i have lik 36 miis i kinda wanna add some miis as like representatives for doll brands. Like miss barbie herself and licca chan but i wanna do facepaint so they dont rlly change expressions for a true doll look but i Suck at the facepaint even tho my irl gave me a stylus its bc i suck at digital art T_T
summer soon thats exciting!! i currently have only 4 days of actual school left, 4 day weekend now bc of holiday and skip day :p so only real day is wednesday, thurs is field day, friday im skipping too bc its a senior trip but me and my irl r gonna our own stuff And then next week only 3 real days, my 2 exams and then im done!! Im not rlly scared bc its physics and stats and ive done pretty gooddd in those classes besides my last physics test that i flopped on but its ok. ahh graduation is so close i cant wait!!
This summer my major craft will be sewing, my moms' friend is a very nice lady and she gave me her late moms' sewing machine. its a late 60s singer model and it come with a button maker and the manuak ^_^ i rlly wanna make a jean bag that i can use in uni bc i dont rlly have a good bag rn, my backpack is dying ill get rid of it after hs, i have a tkdk crossbody but the graphic printing is kinda beat up i dont wanna ruin it anymore </3 andd i also want to make some felt dolls, make some appliques to sew onto tees/camis like graphics Umm and if i get good enough i wanna make a dress for my dog hehe along with some other bags too!! i can also knit now too so i have some plans for that! Tbh i dont go out a lot in the summer, its just too hot for me.... i have asmtha and i think i might be anemic or smth bc i always pass out in the heat so when i do go out i have to pack juices and sugar pills. so i stay in my room most of it... Well idc that much its ok. its my last jobless summer so i must enjoy it to the fullest!